又發癲了

I think the stress that I've been through in the past 2 months have finally caught up with me. Whether work related or personal, it's been a tough 8-week journey (and counting). Today I let it all out at the expense of a towel that I've been using for almost 20 years and poor 文生. Seems like the timer on the bomb finally ticked zero today and blew up.

I know I used to have a really really bad temper that I like to believe have gotten better over the last decade. Lately, I find that my EQ has gotten quite low, to a point where some have asked me why I'm always so bitter about everything. 文生 even told me today that he doesn't see me as a happy person; that I always let the pessimistic side of things outweigh all the positive. I strongly believe that I'm not normally like this however, he seem to think otherwise.

I always regret every time I throw a temper tantrum and break something, especially something irreplaceable. I once told myself that the stupidest thing to do while releasing negative energy is to break things. First, you'd have to clean it up, then you'd have to replace it. That philosophy lasted quite a number of years until a couple of years ago, when I shredded an entire queen sized duvet cover by hand whilst throwing a fit. Since then, I told myself never again will I have such behaviour and regrettably today, I tore up my bath towel. I blame it all on ... raging hormones?

I think several chemicals in my brain are acting up to give me this behaviour. I screamed at 文生, cried my eyeballs out, swore at a stock lady at T&T, snapped at my mom, and questioned my existence, all in the span of only a few hours. Something must be wrong up there. Maybe my hamster ran so much in its exercise wheel that it burned itself out. Sigh... I think I need a holiday... or seek psychological help... lol.

I wasn't going to document today's events, but thought hey, I'll probably come back to read this one day and laugh at myself for being so stupid.

List of stressors, for the record:

• work (getting screamed at everyday by Purchasers having service issues, being asked the same stupid questions over and over, being asked constantly to 做醜人, etc.)
  
• selling of condo (decluttering, packing, moving, painting, listing, showing and finally selling)
• Mom's medical condition
• car related issues (body work, clutch replacement and tonight, boiling coolant)
• new condo (constant problems with building, interior of suite, finishes, neighbours, etc.)
• my own health issues (chronic back pain, constant cramps, mood swings)
• lack of time to myself

... and at 4am, I can't think of the others. Can't believe it took me an hour to write this post. Time to finish my glass of wine and go to sleep.

New Discovery

Worked all weekend, but managed to squeeze in some snack-hunting time and discovered this at T&T:

珍珍 Shake & Roll 黑松露味薯片

Can't wait to try it...

Project Scrapping ver. 3.3 之 Happy CNY and Valentine's Day!

農曆年初一, 希望家人個個身體健康! 適逢情人節, 又癡筋 (I mean 又有 mood) 就做了呢個 scrapbook page 來應應節:

其實我係 submit 咗去另一個 scrapbook challenge!

Project Scrapping ver. 3.2

Okay, so the procrastination bug bit me again and I got sidetracked from scrapping the last 5 pages of my Hong Kong 2008 trip. Last night I got bored while watching 五味人生, so I decided to scrap something... and I picked this picture:

特別客串嘉賓: Patty

I snapped it the other night while making the pulled pork. I did mention that 文生 passed out on me, didn't I? =p

Finally Done! Mmm Mmm Goodness!

完成啦!! It's sooo good... but I overdid it with the seasoning, so it's kinda salty =p

Finally done, after 1 hour of spice mixing, 17 hours of marinating, 7 hours of roasting, 0.5 hour of pulling it apart - yum!

Cooking Marathon

Yesterday, I was blog-browsing and came across a funky recipe for pulled pork. I skimmed through it and decided it was easy enough to give it a try lor...

The fun started when I went to Promenade Mall to pick up the spices and the meat. After spending less than $10, I came home with 5lbs of boneless pork shoulder and 7 different spices. The cooking marathon took off with me making pizza for dinner. Eh, that was simple enough. The interesting part was preparing for the pulled pork. Wah....大工程 lor...

By the time I was ready to start making the spice rub, it was already past midnight so let's just say I had to give it to 文生 for staying up with me to 陪我癲. =p The 癲-est part was manually grinding 3 tablespoons of black pepper. Wah....that took forever! Yes, I was stupid enough to make the same mistake again thinking it wouldn't take very long to grind up some peppercorns so hence I didn't pick up any ground pepper at Bulk Barn (I must have saved all of 80 cents). After combining the 7 spices, salt and freshly ground pepper, I ended up with this:

Nine spices and an hour later ...

... only to use a measly 3 tablespoons of it in the marinade! We made the brine solution and dumped it all onto the pork and sealed it in 2 bags for it to sit in the fridge overnight. My mouth was watering because the spices smelled so yummy and my arms were tired from grinding pepper. That damn pork better be good!


Little did I know, it was already 2am! 文生 passed out on the massage chair while I made lunch for today. Yep, more cooking! In record time, I managed to make curry chicken with 上海白 on rice. Note to myself: bad idea to make curry at 2am. Actually, bad idea making curry at home, period. My place reeked of yun doh ga lay for an entire day!! If it was Japanese curry, it wouldn't be so bad, but damn, real curry tastes good but smells nasty in the house! I finally crashed into bed shortly before 3am.

The cooking marathon continued tonight, as soon as I got home, when I took the pork out of the fridge and prepped it for the oven. I stuck it in at 7:26pm and currently, at 1:13am, it's still roasting. Hopefully it'll be done soon because I'm dead tired!

All prepped for slow-roasting, ya, reaaaally slow

The marathon continues...

Still going after six hours

牛扒'd out!

Today marks the third year that 文生 and I have spent together!! Time flies when you're breathing huh? Happy ngap ngap-versary Hun Hun!!

Originally, we were going to cook at home (tonight being a weeknight and everything) but since work ran a tad late, I managed to convince 文生 to take me to Octagon for steak! Not having much anticipation for this restaurant based on reviews and such, but having a teeny tiny urge to try it anyway, I've concluded that it is indeed a tad overrated. The 24oz porterhouse was good I suppose, but is priced just a bit on the high side at $47. 文生's 16oz rib eye was better tasting but still pricey at $43. The kicker of the entire night was definitely the $35 shrimp cocktail that had all of FOUR shrimp. Mind you the shrimp were massive but at nine bucks a shrimp, I'll make it at home! Not to mention the seafood sauce suck crap! Not a single server cracked the tiniest of a smile all night and their "politeness" was just plain fake. Of course, this being our anniversary dinner, I still had a wonderful time criticizing the restaurant in 文生's companion. Am I upset at the experience? Not one bit. Will I go back again? Probably...not.

I am big! I am expensive!

I really wanted to go try out LOLO tonight (based on 細V's raving review). Damn them for not having seats on a Wednesday night!! Now that I've spent enough money to have me eating bird grains for the next few months, I think I'll have to wait for Summerlicious to check out LOLO.

I'm ranting, but I'm still giddy...hahaha~! 愛情嘅魔力! 文生嘅魅力! (想嘔未?)